Babies??

Happy Thursday everyone!! This week has been such a blur, it’s flown by and crawled by at the same time.

Alex’s get together ended early last nightso I was able to make the company softball game after all. I was glad to go out to support the boys, but I was even more thankful for all the laughs. I work mostly in the admin side of things, so I don’t have all that much interaction with the guys. I truly forgot how fun they are. Last night all the admin people came out (a rarity) and we had fun getting out of the office to cheering them on. My take away for the evening was that my coworkers are actually pretty cool. Who knew? I really need to plan a team building event in a fun & causal environment.

The downside of last night was the fact that I didn’t get home until almost 11:30. The second game didn’t start until 9:45 (it was quick thankfully) and it was around 35 miles home to get home. I usually try to go to bed early and wake up early, but last night and this morning that most definitely did NOT happen. I’ve been taking a sleeping pill to get to sleep, and it was so late when I got home that I was afraid to take it and not be able to wake up in the morning. Sooo… I am now almost caught up with Sons of Anarchy, but I didn’t get to sleep until almost three this morning. Uhg! It was a loooong Thursday!

I’ve always had trouble sleeping, so I try to practice good “sleep hygiene”. This includes no caffeine after 12pm, steady sleep schedules, no screen time less than 1 hour before bed, and other similar stuff.  Well I do watch TV in bed, but I try to follow “the rules”.

Recently I have been having super vivid dreams thought and it’s really kind of freaking me out. So far this week I have dreamed I had a newborn and that I was pregnant.Three nights and counting… and probably the weirdest part of it all was I was actually kinda sad/ disappointed when I woke up baby-less. I’ve told T about it and he says he’s glad I’m having these dreams, which just freaks me out further haha.

He wants kids sooner than me.. Then again he doesn’t have to do the whole pregnancy/ trying to make huge decisions regarding his career to have kids soon either though..

The one thing I do know is that I don’t want a kid before the wedding!

I am actually a couple months past the time that I needed to get my IUD replaced (not worried about it though because Europeans use the same device I have for 7 years- instead of the 5 that the US does). On Monday I called the doctor’s office to see if they could run the device and procedure though my insurance to see how much everything would cost. I’ve been saving $$ wherever I can for the past bit (also why I waited a little longer than the 5 years) because the last time I had this it was close to $600! The doctor’s office finally called me back today and told me that insurance wouldn’t cover the two ultrasounds they do- so I’d have to cover those.. but that insurance is covering the rest. I was so excited to find out that I am only going to have to spend $100 total.

I was excited because I didn’t want to drop a ton of cash on medical stuff, but also because if I’m only spending $100 I won’t feel bad taking it out earlier than 5 years. I’m so cheap! haha. I wish my body would tolerate hormonal birth control so I wouldn’t have to mess with the IUD at all though! Paying $600 for birth control last time painful was painful in more than one way!

In other news- I am pretty sure everyone in the office officially thinks I’m insane now. I went to put the IUD appointment in my phone calendar and as I typed in I-U-D autocorrect changed the letters to K-I-D. The letters are not even close! I started laughing so hard that I had to step out and call T to tell him about it. The autocorrect gods are messing with me big time.

The other weird thing is that my dreams are always most vivid right before I wake up. Based off the little bit of research I have done on sleep cycles I thought that you had to be in the deepest stage of sleep (REM) to dream. It’s weird because I’ve been hitting snooze (bad Jen!) a lot, and as soon as I do I go right back to where I was in the dream. I don’t know if I’m truly hitting snooze in my sleep (and getting up to turn off my actual alarm clock!!) or if I’m out of it when it goes off and I want to know what happens so I go back to sleep??

Is it weird to ask what motivates you all to get out of bed? Really loving you job??

Does anyone pop out of bed or have I just been watching too much TV?

What weight do you give to your dreams?

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So What Wednesday

Hello loves!! Is anyone as glad as I am that the dumb hump day camel is finally losing favor? I loved him when he first came out, but my coworkers will forever love him apparently.

I’ve never participated in this particular link up- but I always enjoy reading y’alls responses so I decided to join in on the fun

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So what if I took a two day break from dog? She has been a real pain recently and I’ve got too much to do in too few hours. My lovely mom is watching her for me and I’m pretty sure she enjoys her mountains of treats time at Grandma’s house more than going to work with me anyway.

So what if I planned to just drop off cold meds for T at work yesterday and ended up ditching work and taking a lunch with him? He had just clocked out and I can count the number of times that I’ve had workday lunch with him on one hand. Plus he got stuck working all last weekend, so between our crazy work schedules I miss him even though we live together.

So what if I’m skipping the last company softball game tonight. It’s my friend of 13 (omg when did we get so old?!?) year’s birthday and I’m not skipping her celebration!!

So what that I just deep cleaned the rug cleaner- for the first time since we bought it six months ago. That ish is nasty.. and complicated. I put it off for as long as humanly possible.

So what if I decided on a wedding venue and date and haven’t really told anyone. (Other than T and my mom obviously). I’m not ready to make any more decisions for a little bit, so I’ll keep quiet if I want!

So what if I’ve been having a ton of pregnancy dreams and not hating it. WEIRD!

So what that I have had all my diplomas/certifications + the frames I bought to hang them sitting on my desk for 2+ weeks. Oh wait! That’s not so what- it’s really driving me nuts. People quit adding crap to my to do PILE on my desk.. I just wanna hang my damn stuff up! haha

So what if I’m ignoring said pile to write this post..

So what that it’s Wednesday and I’m already looking forward to Friday!!

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A Very Surreal Day

So I had the best diet intentions ever for today. I shopped and prepped all my breakfast, snacks, lunches and dinners for the entire week last night.

Another big thing I did was make the mental commitment that no matter what I tell myself in the morning I would be getting my damn ass out of bed for the gym.

Last night I slept terribly. It was weird, I knew as I was sleeping that I was troubled. I tend to have BAD anxiety dreams when I’m stressed and last night’s topped them all. I woke up around 3-4 and saw a text message from my Dad asking if I was awake. He sent it around midnight and then followed it with a message saying call me before you go into work. Since he followed it up with that I figured it was just work stuff (not uncommon) so I tried to go back to sleep for a bit.

Around 6 I woke up to my phone ringing and it was my Dad. He asked if I was awake and I told him not really. He asked me to wake up a little because he had some bad news. He started off by saying we’re fine, Grandpa’s fine, the animals are fine.. but the cabin burned down last night. My heart just sunk when he started telling me everyone was fine, because I knew I wasn’t going to like what he had to say by any means.

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The cabin was my happy place. There was no work and no stress up there. Just relaxation and family. I wrote a post in May that summed it up well I think. It’s just the most relaxing place on Earth (or AZ at least).

My dad talked about selling it a few years ago and it was then that I realized how much I loved it.

The fire started by the side of the house- they are guessing lightening was the cause right now, but that isn’t the final work. It actually started right under my window.

As crappy as it is I know everything happens for a reason. It’s still hard to deal with right now though.

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That’s my bed frame laying on the ground.

The closet and most of the ceiling is laying in the basement below my room. My parent’s bathroom was above it and their tub, sink, and toilet are all laying in the basement closet.

Everything happens for a reason. I can’t even begin to think how bad it would have been if we were there. (And I don’t want to). My Grandpa would have been in the room next to me. He can walk, but he’s slow. My parents would have been trapped upstairs with the smoke. We would have had five dogs with us. (My 2, Grandpas 2 and my moms). Best case scenario we would have had five dogs loose in the forest. Worst… no. T and I also took pretty much all of our family pictures up last time we went. We had plans to come back the next weekend (didn’t happen) and I considered leaving them up there. Thank GOD I didn’t. Seriously, thank you God.

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The fire was concentrated in my bedroom, but the downstairs bath, laundry/mudroom and kitchen all got it bad.

The cabin is 2.5 hours away so we drove up there to talk to the fire chief, police and insurance people early today. The house is likely a total loss. There are a few little things like pictures that they will be able to save and clean up. It started raining while we were up there and they opened up the basement doors so we could look it. It was raining in the basement…water was coming in from the lofted ceiling 3 stories up.

It was all just too much to deal with. It still doesn’t seem real.

2 random asides from today that actually made the day somewhat tolerable:

1.) The police chief brought his k9. As he was leaving I asked if I could see him. He said sure so I followed him to his car. I just literally meant see, but he brought him out so I could pet and meet him. He was super sweet, and it was cool to learn a little bit about him and his training. The funny part was I thought his name was “kilo” from what I read in the community newsletter. Nope, actually “kiko”.. pretty sure they chief thought I was an idiot, but I did explain that I thought it was a pun..

2.) When we went to open the storage unit under the kitchen it reminded me of when I opened it a few summers ago and I saw a really weird critter. It looked and moved like a snake, but it had legs. I asked the fire guys if they were local, and they said yes. So I asked them what it was called. One of the two left to take a call, so it was just me and the younger one. He replied “a skank”. The whole day caught up with me and I snort laughed, because I thought I misheard him. I asked him to repeat himself and he turned bright pink and I was like “I swear I’ve heard them called skanks”. Good stuff.

I told my mom about it in the car on the way home and her comment was “well I wonder how they came up with that. You don’t get that name for nothing”. This came from my super conservative, sweet, quiet mom.

Everything is just so weird right now. I don’t think it’s sunk in much.. I know it wasn’t nearly as bad as it could be.. but damn.

Anyway, thanks for the mini therapy sessions. To actually get back on point- my goals are simple this week. Just make it out with my mind. I am going to try to hit the gym extra for some sanity and eat well- the hard part is done. No recap this week.. next week ‘kay?

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Lotto Dreaming (Link Up)

Ok, so I have been a little MIA this week.. I have mentioned before that I love one of my jobs and can’t stand the other. Well, I definitely reached a breaking point this week at work (more on that later, maybe).

I truly have a million and one things to do, but I can’t not do this link up so here goes 🙂

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I’m sure you guys will never believe it, but I have fantasized thought about this very topic a time or two before. I’m definitely gonna have to win big to fulfill all this, but we are dreaming right? My luck would be I’d use all my lotto winning mojo on a $200 win though- ha!!

*First of all I would pay off our house.

* Next I would pay off T’s and my parent’s homes.

* I would help T’s parent’s buy the bar/grill they have always wanted.

* I would hire someone super qualified to clean up my Dad’s business. That way he could finally just “be the buyer” like he wants.

* I would buy T this car:

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* And then this one for his birthday, just because..

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*I would buy myself this beauty..

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It would be slate blue though, duh

* I would donate to charities- Animals, women’s causes, cancer research, Veterans

*I would plan our dream wedding! Complete with party buses to get everyone there since it’s a bit of a trek.

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*I would set up a college/trust fund for two hypothetical kids

*I would invest a big chunk of the winnings

*I would buy my BFF a home here, so she would have no excuse not to visit

*I would give some to friends and family.. so be nice to me people 😉

*I would buy a “summer home” in Crested Butte, CO.

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*I would buy my parents a huge vacation package- to force them to travel!

*T and I would travel- Spain, Greece, Ireland, Islands.. all over

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Can you tell I’m craving some beach time today?

*I would charter a personal jet every Christmas so T’s family could come here or we could go there. In style of course.

*I would design and build a dream “forever” home. I want to stay in the area, but we are going to have to build to accommodate what I want.. Land, horse barn (and someone to take care of the horses..), shop, big garage, AMAZING yard- complete with lazy river, swim up pool and BBQ area. Don’t forget plenty of bedrooms,spa bathrooms gym, great kitchen, playroom, craft room… naw I won’t get carried away.

*I’m obviously going to need someone to help me clean/care for all of this. A fitness coach/trainer would be great too..

*I would hire my hair stylist to stop by my house every morning

*I think a boob job and lazer hair removal would be in order, and I’ve always wondered about spray tanning..

*I would definitely round out each afternoon with some shopping too.

Thanks for the fun link up Holly

I hope everyone has a great weekend!!!!

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